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Google is not really a company I used to cover on my beat so much, but just by the nature of what they're doing, how they're expanding and how pervasive they are in our lives, I've turned into a reporter who has to follow the company's moves.

I did so yesterday on NPR in a segment about Google Buzz, what's going on with Google in China and their recent announcement of an ultra-high-speed broadband service. I posted an entry on the All Tech Considered blog with lots of links to updates.

It was the first segment I've done in a few weeks. I've been keeping busy working on a video project with my former LCP castmate Mical Trejo and Bobby Bones. We shot some video over the weekend and are finalizing a script to send out. It's been a busy few weeks, but I'm kind of amazed at how much we did in such a short time.

My wife is going back to work in a few weeks and Carolina is growing quickly. She'll have to go to daycare soon and we're a little worried about how that's going to play out. But worried in a very minor way because she and Lilly are both healthy and everything's going great. We're very lucky and we know it.

A woman who works at Lilly's daycare gave birth last week and the baby passed away. We've gotten updates via notes sent to all the parents and over the weekend we knew the situation was dire.

This wasn't a premature birth or anything like that. By all measures, everything should have gone perfectly, except that it didn't.

Before Carolina was born, we stressed that something might go wrong. The pregnancy went so smoothly that we thought surely our luck couldn't hold out to have a birth that was so complication-free.

I worry a lot that our luck will someday run out. I know that's not a healthy or even sane way of looking at things, but to know parents who've lost children and to see the horrible things that happen in the news (particularly in San Antonio) to infants and toddlers, I sometimes just get overwhelmed by all the trouble that's passed us by.

We don't talk about it much, but when we do, we come to the conclusion that if anything happened to Lilly, it could easily destroy us. It could destroy me. I don't know what I would do, honestly. I've always believed myself to be a strong person, but the kind of strength I see in other parents who have survived such things astonishes me. It's otherworldly.

I'm not sure how to deal with even the thought of something like that other than to do what most parents have to do: keep on moving, watching your kids grow, and protect them any way you know how.

posted by Omar G. at 11:11 AM

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